Deep in my heart
In my life, there are sweetness of joy, but also bitterness of distress. Every time I think of those troubles, I always feel unspeakable.
My grandfather is nearly 60 years old, but he is very strong in his life. In order to cure his grandmother, he spent a lot of money. Now, although his hair is gray, he has been working on the construction site to make a living. Because my grandfather's legs are not flexible sometimes, he often has some small accidents on the construction site. At this time, dad not only does not care about grandfather's body, but also always mercilessly scolds grandfather and says: "you old fool, you can't even do this thing well!" After this time, my grandfather wanted to argue for a few words, but he swallowed the words again. He looked at the distance and didn't say a word. At night, when I got home, my grandfather, who had been tired all day, rushed to water the garden. At this time, grandma always reproaches herself and says: "Alas, I'm useless..." He would secretly hide in the room to shed tears.
I remember once, when my father got drunk, he lost his temper when he came home. He didn't like anyone, especially his grandparents. I see all this in my eyes and worry in my heart.
At that time, the school organized a movie. In the morning, I asked my father for two yuan. As soon as I opened my mouth, my father yelled, "I'm going to find your grandfather!" This time I was angry, retorted: "every time I ask for my grandfather, you don't know his financial situation..." Before I finished speaking, my father slapped me in the face. I didn't hide, but I cried silently
After dinner, my mother gave me four yuan and said to me, "you are really asking for trouble. How much money does your grandfather give you now! Later, when he is old, we will not provide him with food and clothing... " At the moment, my heart is frozen, so cold.
Mom and Dad, have you ever thought that you will grow old in the future!
My distress
My family was originally in the northeast, and later moved to Wuyi village, Sanshandao street, Laizhou City.
There is basically no source of income at home, relying on more than half an acre of land to fight for food.
When I was very young, dad gave up. The eldest brother gave it to someone else as an adopted son. The second brother borrowed money to buy a house and owed a lot of debt. The sister-in-law quarreled all day for divorce.
My mother is 60 years old. She is weak and ill (hypertension, nephritis, neurasthenia, arthritis). If she was a little relaxed, she would go to work in the field, or go out to work for a few days, and then she couldn't support herself. After lying for several days, she couldn't cure her illness.
Mom is thrifty and never spends money indiscriminately. The monthly electricity bill in my family never exceeds two yuan, sometimes it only costs two yuan and fifty cents in two months. Second brother's pension to my mother, also let me spend, this is not pension, it is to support me.
There is a small vegetable garden in my family. I try not to buy vegetables. But my mother is afraid that I will be greedy. She planted some fruit trees and saved the money to buy fruit. Mom raises a few rabbits every year. When she grows up, she sells them to earn money. Sometimes the rabbit died after half a year.
Seeing my mother working so hard, I didn't dare to spend any money. I only bought one yuan lunch every day and never ate snacks. My clothes are given by people, including teachers and classmates. Sometimes, when my brother bought me a pair of shoes, my mother said unhappily, "how many pens and books can I buy with that money? How many lunches can I have at school? " Every time the school collects money, I feel hard to say, alas! When will I be able to shoulder the burden of this family and let my mother stop working?
Last year, when I collected money for books and miscellaneous expenses, my mother decided not to let me go to school if she couldn't borrow money. Alas! If not for me, how could my mother be so tired! At that time, I was caught up with my mother's old illness and couldn't get out of bed. I cooked for her at home and served her. I decided to pay attention to dropping out of school to work (because I can earn 10 yuan a day peeling corn for others during the National Day holiday).
Later, it was the head teacher's earnest persuasion and striving for the school's subsidy for poor students that made me give up the idea of dropping out of school and go back to school. However, although my academic performance is among the best, sports can be outstanding, but whenever I think about the future, it is not only gloomy: where is my future? Where?
My distress
Winter vacation, this is a happy holiday, you can play snowstick, you can also skate on the river. However, only this winter vacation, I lost my freedom, lost my playmate, lost all contact with the outside world. The root cause of all this is that the final exam didn't do well and the biology exam was poor, so I had to do my homework at home.
Although, my parents said that during the new year, can be good, happy to play a few days, but play after a good study.
From the beginning of winter vacation, I face the snow-white wall every day, I look at the snow-white wall to stab my eyes. I can't help blurring everything in front of me. I feel like crying, but I don't know why I'm crying? Is it for my happy winter vacation? For my bird like freedom? For my friends who talk about everything? Or for everything I know? I don't know. I'm upset.
Even so, my parents discipline me so severely. However, I look at this home alone day after day, looking at this biology book, looking at the homework that put me out of breath. I just want to cry. Why did this happen? Just because I didn't take the final exam, OK? Don't mom and dad believe me, don't believe me, I will only have this mistake, never again.
I am afraid to face my relatives, so generally my parents go to other people, I will not follow. When people ask me my score, I have to keep silent. Secretly look at my mother's eyes, my mother's eyes are full of disappointment. I feel sad again and want to cry.
Every minute I stay at home is like an hour; every hour I stay at home is like a day; every day I stay at home is like a year. I live at home like a year, I am very distressed, although the winter vacation is only one month, but I seem to have passed a few years, is this God's punishment for me? I think so.
Finally, the winter vacation passed, I ushered in a new semester, before school, I made a schedule. Every day I move forward for my goals. Then, I firmly believe that in the next summer vacation, winter vacation, I will return to my previous kind of endless happy life.
Troubles in my heart
The curtain of the second year of junior high school is falling slowly, but my final palace is so weak, and my life is lost again.
The depression in the entrance examination continues like this. The past that I can't bear to look back sprinkles bitterness in my heart. The fiasco of xiaoshengchu arouses my fear of the entrance examination, and these examinations make me more worried. Just like the thorns on the road of life pierce into the thigh, it brings more acid than pain. This trouble haunts my soul like a ghost, and delusion leads me astray. I kept struggling, but I couldn't get rid of it completely.
I have questioned myself many times: are you destined not to be born for the exam? Although this problem has not been settled, it has always puzzled me. In modern society, the good ones may not succeed, but the bad ones seem doomed to failure. Thinking that every exam will indirectly affect the future, I can't help but take a few breath. Worry makes the exam a nightmare and makes everything so dark. I can't bear the weight of it, and it's even harder to get rid of it. Two years of accumulation has made it deeply rooted in my heart, as if connected with myself, inseparable from each other.
I live in the shadow of it. Of course, it's also suitable for me to survive. I feel that I have become a walking ruler in the examination, and I am being spurned by the world. Everything is far away from me. Fate joked with me too often, but in some cases, it still gave me fair treatment, but what's the use? It's too trivial. I don't want to complain, because I am a righteous person in reality, but on the way to pursue the future, my troubles have stirred me hard to calm down. I want to vent, but look up, there is nothing worth venting, they are very realistic.
I wrote this composition with my heart. I hope my troubles will go away like this water.
Troubles in my heart
I am eleven years old this year, but I have a lot of trouble in my heart. The trouble is that I am too fat. Some students look down on me and don't play with me. They also say some ugly words to stimulate me and make me happy.
One day after school, I saw some students playing basketball on the playground. I also want to participate, so I ran up and said, "I'm one, too!". A classmate immediately said: "you are a fat man, you can't run fast! If you want to join, go to the fat people's Club! ". At that time, I was so angry that I didn't say, "what's so great about you being thin? If you don't want to play with me, I don't want you! " Then I turned and left.
I was very sad all the way. I really want to go back and beat him up! But I still control myself. I strode home with my head held high, no one looked at me, no one paid attention to me, tears in my eyes only turned around, but I still couldn't resist it.
Back home, when I saw my mother, I cried out. My mother asked me why. She put her hand on my head, bent down, looked at me with a smile and said, "Oh, my child is wronged today, isn't it? It doesn't matter. It's right that people don't play with you. If you look so fat, you must run slower than others, which will affect everyone's performance. That's why students don't want to play with you. If you want to lose weight in the future, you will get better. A man should have strong willpower! " At this time, my father came back. After hearing about this, he put down his things and said to me seriously: "children, fat is not ugly, ugly is those children who do not study seriously, do not do well and pay attention to dressing."
Although mom and dad's words are reasonable, but just because I am fat, some students look down on me, do not play with me, and even make me happy, I still feel unfair. Therefore, I feel very distressed. But I am determined to lose weight, can not let students take me happy!
Troubles in my heart
Although I am happy all day, the beating heart in my small chest is annoying! Why? Just look at my height!
Usually act always high-profile, since I went to junior high school, I have become a real little girl in front of my classmates now. Even girls have more than half of their height higher than me. I stand in front of people like a child. I'm sorry, don't mention it! It's not hard to say that it's hard to walk with my male classmates, but every time I walk with my shoulder on my back, it's my day of pain. Every time I have to try my best to think about my feet and cuddle hard, and finally I can reach it. Look again, he has already walked down the stairs, and I still have three steps, so I can't smile bitterly. Every time I clean the blackboard, my disaster comes. I step on a rickety chair and wipe the big mirror which is tall and wide in my opinion. It's a mess.
For my height, I endured a lot of hardships, starting with tonic, potatoes, carrots, almost most of them