My thoughts after reading with Ditan

Article 1: after reading with Ditan, when I first read this article, I was deeply moved by the author's plain words, deep and profound emotions and long-lasting philosophical thinking. Therefore, when I calm down to reread this article, I find that the perception of life, the understanding of life and the speculation of life in this article are no longer the waves floating on the surface, but the torrent of the author's deepest heart and soul after decades of hard work. In particular, the second part, which is the most concentrated part of the author's description of his mother, has left a deep impression on me. Let me talk about my understanding of this part. Some things happen too fast, too suddenly, before you want to understand, make it clear, it is naked in front of you, the storm is coming, you can't breathe, and all you can do is to bear it silently. The author is no doubt sympathetic. When he lived to the most arrogant age, he suddenly disabled his legs. When the chapter of his life was about to start, he suddenly printed a stop sign. Such a blow is really huge. No matter who it is, it will be unbearable. However, the author is undoubtedly lucky that he has a mother who understands him and cares for him. Deep in his heart, when the desolate garden was alone facing the broken walls and broken tiles, there was a man who was searching along his ruts, and a man who was praying for heaven to enable her to share her son's pain. But her son is too young to understand the meaning of life and the pain of a mother more than her son. So, all this, she only silently endure, silently hidden in the heart - this person, destined to live the most bitter mother. When his novel won the prize for the first time, when his life lit up the light of hope again, she suddenly left, as if she came to this world just to worry about her son. As the author wrote, maybe her heart was too bitter. God saw that she could not bear it, so he called her back. When I write about it, I can't help thinking of my mother. She gets up early every morning to prepare breakfast for me. She goes out to work at the weekend. She goes around to buy reference books for me Did my mother come to this world just to worry about her son? Recently, my mother told me that his heart was a little bad. I was greatly surprised and asked her to take care of her health. My mother is still young. She will be fine. I comforted myself secretly, but seeing her mother's increasingly haggard face and growing white hair, I still understand that she has devoted her most precious energy to her son! Finally, as for "what is the road that mother expected the author to find", I personally believe that this road is a road to happiness and happiness. No matter what you do, as long as you can live happily and healthily, this is the greatest yearning of every mother for her children. It can be said that "a wandering son's coat, a loving mother's thread in her hand". As long as the child can find his own happiness and realize his ideal, his mother will silently support and selflessly contribute. This is also the greatest part of "mother"! Chapter 2: after reading "I and Ditan", the writers have commented that even if only "I and Ditan" was published throughout the year, the literary world in China would not be lonely. Because it's a piece of prose about life. The author realized life and death on Naihe bridge, but finally refused the invitation of death. He decided to turn his heart into a fertile soil, on which his mother sowed the first seed. Then there is an old couple, a young singer, a female teacher, a long-distance runner, a mentally retarded girl Countless people who have encouraged and moved the author inadvertently create a forest of life. The author finds the meaning of life in the forest, and then he has Shi Tiesheng in today's literary world. It's a pity that many forests once disappeared fearlessly, only the ring on the stump is telling the unspeakable pain. After Kawabata Yasunari won the Nobel Prize for literature, he described his feelings in his article "sunset fields" like this: "honor and status are obstacles. Too much neglect of talent will make the artist weak willed, too weak to bear hardships, and even unable to play his talent. On the other hand, reputation can be the source of talents If you remain a "honorary citizen" all your life, your heart will be even heavier. I want to be free from all my fame. " On April 16, 1972, Kawabata Yasunari suddenly took the form of suicide with a gas pipe and died. Kawabata Yasunari did not leave a letter. But he said: "suicide without a letter is the best. Silent death is infinite life. " This is just one example. Maupassant, a famous French writer, cut his throat with a paper cutter; a dull gunshot rang out in the house of Mariano Lara, a Spanish writer; Kleist, a German playwright, and Henriette Fogg, who accompanied him, died together; Stephen Zweig, a famous Austrian writer, committed suicide with his wife In 1989, Haizi, a famous contemporary Chinese poet, jumped into the sea after leaving a sentence: "facing the sea, spring blossoms." Of course, this may be a cultural precipitation. Japanese believe that death is the continuation of life, death is moral self-improvement, is a kind of self-discipline behavior. Perhaps influenced by the political environment, Lao she ended his life in the beautiful West Lake after being shaved during the cultural revolution. However, why should we turn the fertile land of life into a desert? Have you ever seen autumn insects? It sings day and night. Because its life is so short, it must show the value of its life in a high density. What about people? Just because their life is longer than that of autumn insects, can they abandon the thousands of beautiful and exciting dawn at will? "When a person is born, it is no longer a debatable issue, but a fact given to him by God. When God gives us this fact, he has already guaranteed its result by the way. Therefore, death is not a matter of rushing for success, and death is a festival that will surely come." ——"I and the altar of earth" is good. It's flesh, skin and hair. It's influenced by my parents. Respect for life is the minimum responsibility of a life; from small to large, how many people and how much effort have been devoted to a life, respect for life is respect for the countless care. What's more, writers are engineers of people's hearts. There are countless people who are encouraged by those literary works full of passion and life to embark on the journey of life again. But when they look back, they find that the benefactor they once worshipped and yearned for has withered away. What kind of embarrassment and pain will it be. Faulkner once said: "the writer's bounden duty is to make people's heart become noble, and to revive people's courage, hope, dignity, compassion, compassion and sacrifice." Is it worth it to abandon courage, hope, dignity, compassion and compassion for one's own liberation, let the mother cry alone in the dead of night, let the wife stay alone in the empty room, make the children unable to continue to feel maternal or paternal love, let the readers disappointed, and let the society lose talents? Respect for life is the least love for others. "I and the altar of earth" has such a passage: "in the night after those empty days, in the day after those sleepless nights, (mother) thinks and thinks, and finally says to herself:" anyway, I can't help him go out. The future is his own. If he really wants to have something wrong in that garden, I have to bear the suffering. " Do you really have the heart to make your mother destined to be the most miserable mother in the world?! If you die for faith, for the country, for the nation, for justice, like Chopin, for Poland's independence, mother will be proud of you! Unfortunately not! When fighting the flood in 1998, a platoon soldier jumped into the water and stopped the flood peak with his flesh and blood. Afterwards, the soldiers said that they only thought it was time to die for their country. Unexpectedly, the platoon growled and yelled, "no one is allowed to die!" Everyone held hands and soaked in the water for an hour, but no one fell down. Earlier, there was a couple traveling to Huashan. When taking photos, the husband slipped down the cliff carelessly. The wife bit her husband's collar and held it on the edge of the cliff for more than two hours until other passengers rescued him. Soldiers and couple, they are not writers, they can't write Peng Bi Shenghui's articles, but they know the meaning of life and love. I think it seems necessary to reflect more on those writers who have written all the love and hatred in the world, but can't get rid of the fetters and commit suicide. Chapter 3: in the advanced stage of gastric cancer, life is not like death. In this case, the author Lu Youqing did not give up the desire for life and walked through the last 100 days. "Death arranges a lonely time in everyone's last moments," he said. I have already stepped on the long gray carpet. What's my fear? I think what I'm doing is quite meaningful. What I can record may be very limited, but at least, I'm doing it, recording some real things. Life is gorgeous because of the ending, I firmly believe that. After hesitation, I said to myself, "write it." After the publication of the book, the cover is a golden sunflower symbolizing the beauty and desire of life. Even so for those who are dying, how much more for those who have no disease or disaster? I think Lu Youqing's pain in the face of death is no less than those writers. "Sun, every moment is sunset and sunrise. When he went down the mountain to collect the bleak afterglow, it was when he was burning on the other side and climbing up the mountain to dissipate the heat. " ——"I and the altar of earth" every life is every sun. As long as it exists, it must have its value and brilliance. Even if it is temporarily or permanently in the low ebb of life, we should try our best to ignite hope instead of suicide. Whether it's a writer or someone in other industries, it's the same. So never leave the loss and pain in your heart for a long time. That way, you are like taking a wicked daughter-in-law home. When someone needs to run away from home, it must be you rather than her. If I can keep a heart from breaking, I will not live in vain; if I can eliminate a person's pain, or calm a person's sorrow, or help a comatose Robin return to its nest, I will not waste my life. Because of this, in 365 days of a year, no matter smile or pain, I will live happily! People's life is like a beam of light, it will definitely hit the wall, there will be twists and turns. But as long as you don't give up the courage to move forward, you will be able to reach the other side of your heart! Maybe there are more precious things in the world than life, such as love and faith. It's worth dying for these, but please don't commit suicide for yourself! Chapter 4: when Shi Tiesheng was 21 years old, he went back to Beijing to be hospitalized because of his leg disease. Since then, he has never stood up again and is the most crazy in his life