She may never know what she wants, but she always knows what she doesn't want.
She always likes to be a spectator behind the scenes. She looks at everything coldly and quietly. In her eyes, everything is expected by her. She doesn't think there is anything new. If she shows something new, it is because she thinks it should be done. Like a theatre goer, she always stays out of the way.
Don't blame her for her indifference. It's the only way she can protect herself. She is like a hedgehog, always erect the thorn on her body, but her thorn will not hurt people, she is only used to arm herself. She did not dare to ask for too much love. She was afraid that after enjoying the love, all that remained was double pain. Therefore, when others over dote on her, she will not be happy, but will run away in fear. She does not know how to repay others' love for her. If you get her love, it is because she already knows how to face it and how to repay it. She pursues that kind of gentleman's friendship as light as water. She knows how to love, but she is not used to it. She knows that love is often accompanied by hate, and hate is too heavy a pain, but also too easy to make people tired. She didn't want pain, so she was too lazy to hate. So, in order to prevent the arrival of hate and pain, she had to choose not to love, even if love, is light and cold. Don't blame her. She really doesn't know how to focus.